Hey guys! Sorry my lack of updates, yet again. I've been really busy lately.

I have good news on colleges. I'm thinking of going to AIU in Weston, FL. If anyone goes there.. holler. =]

Summer has been gradually getting better. I'm completely over Brian and I now that I look back on it, I can't believe I dedicated so much of my time to go over to his place and be walked on by him. I'm happier without him and that's great. I actually am starting to like Andrew a lot more... he's a great guy. I met up with him down at summerfest and yeah, he's a sweetie. There's that kid Jim in my summer school who is also cute.. but I don't think our realtionship would last. I'm at the point in my life where I'm sick of little relationships here and there with guys that only last a few months or a few weeks.. I want the real deal... someone who I could see myself with for awhile. I'm sick of little boys and their games.

ANYWAYS.

Tomorrow I leave for Up north, so most likely I won't be doing much updating then either. I'll probably update once I get to the internet cafe up there. =] Well I best be going so I'll edit later. Love ya'll.

It's been so long, I don't even know where to begin! I'll make it short but sweet.

-Brian and I are done. Neither of us really 'ended' whatever the hell we had, but I'm starting to get over him for good this time. I came to realize yet again he still hasn't grown up nor does he want to.

-I had a little thing with John for a bit.. it was random and he was broken up with his gf Kayla who is not pretty btw, and she's annoying as hell and they've been dating for 4 years. Now they're back together and we don't talk. I liked John since frosh year and we almost went out but Kayla's been holding him back obviously. So yeah, that's a peace out on him I guess.

-Claire is having a thing with Zinke (Kyle) who is friends with John... may I add best friends. I hooked those two up and they're not going out but he really likes her. I guess nothing good happens to me but whatever that's fine.

-Summer school is a BLAST. I kinda like this guy Jim who's hilarious and he's going to be a lawyer or work for politics. He's sucha a cutie .. but he is breaking up with his 22 year old gf, he's 18. WTF is with guys dating older girls?? It's definitely the maturity and experience issue.. more so the experience.

-Up north vaca is coming up July 7th and I'm so excited to get out of here. Claire's still coming with. We don't associate ourselves with Farmer or Brian or any of them anymore. I think that was the best thing for us to leave them alone.

-I'm gaining some weight back cause I've been eating not so well so I'm going to push myself so hard these few weeks so get real skinny again and I know it's possible. If anyone knows any tips or advice, please share! I'm not fat or didn't gain all the weight back but she's-a-comin.

-Other than that, No boys for me. I was hoping John would work out but there's still hope. Zinke says Kayla's annoying and always texts and he doesn't know why they're going back out. Whatever.

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Haha welll. Life is back to being GAY again. Realll gay.

I kinda thought things were looking up for Brian and I because I hung out with him alone like 2 days ago but last night ruined it because me and Claire went over there and it was kinda.. obnoxious. He was real tired and we left. Justin and Kris were there. It was laaaame. I figure, I'm finally done with Brian. He basically told me he doesn't want a relationship with anyone anyways... because of his ex... and he thinks this 39 year old is hot and she wants to fuck him, so that's a real winner there.. right? Whatever.

At like 2 in the morning after leaving Brian's, we went to Dennys. These drunk guys were hitting on us and making us laugh so it was all worth it and our night got better. We didn't wake up til like 1 this afternoon and now it's like 3 and the day is basically gone...... haha it's so shitty. Tonight we're staying in and doing whatever. I'm so sick of it here.. nothing seems to get better, and if it does it's only for a real short period of time.

The company of the guy that hit my dad in the car accident is buying us a new car and I'm kinda excited for that. It'll be interesting to see what new car we get.

Up North is coming up in 3 weeks. I'm SO ready for it. Get me outta here! I feel like my life is going down hill so quickly.

Whatever. Peace ouut.

So, summer is looking up... or so I think?

Today my dad got in a real bad car accident on his way to work. Of course my cell was still program to turn automatically to silent at 9am every morning so I slept through all of my mom's calls and Claire's calls. I called my mom back and she told me he was in a car accident.. and it was pretty bad. She said the car was totaled. I hurried off the phone with her and called my dad... thank God he's okay. His had just is puffy and hurts a little bit but I almost started crying because I felt SO bad for him.. and I still do. So basically the car is totaled, I went to look at it today after Claire's house. The guy who hit him is an illegal immigrant.. has no license.. doesn't have a green card.. can't pronounce his name.. can't speak english.. and had to bring an interpreter. It's SO ridiculous. Who knows what will happen... the guy happens to work for some landscaping company and the owner talked to my dad and offered to buy him a brand new car or give him money, but I say sue the damn company. I'm so furious! I don't even know how he's taking it so well. But I'm glad he's okay and that's all that matters because I can't stand to lose ANY of my parents.. they mean the WORLD to me.

Brian and I are talking again. Gooooo figure. Tomorrow we're gonna hangout during the day I think.. because he doesn't have work. Now he has a job and doesn't drink - or so I think he doesn't drink; he may have just cut back but I'm SO proud of him because that's a huge step. Especially a big step when he hangs around people who only care about getting fucked up everyday, 24-7. Claire and Justin (The one with the same car as me) are hanging out periodically, but who knows what will happen with them. Dylan and I are talking A LOT.. we're becomig closer in a friend way which is cool because I used to be so intimidated to talk to him before so I'm glad we're close.. not to mention he's soo hott.

On the other haaaaaaand... Claire and I went up north this weekend. To Alma in Wisconsin; it's riiight by Minnesota. It was GORGEOUS up there. That town is so small.. and so cute. Everyone knows each other. What's great was that it was really quiet and everyone was so respectful. It looked like one of those cute towns from a movie. We went up for her mom's reunion but we just drove around, ate, and stayed in the cabin. We only stayed for a night and on the way home we stopped in the Dells to do some shopping. What was freaky though was that there was a group of fishermen who were like in their 40s-50s (And one who was maybe in his 20s) who were either drunk or something... that kept talking to us and wanting to hangout with us.. it was so sick. The youngest one brought us BEER to our door and yeah, it was definitely interesting but hilarious.

Soo yeah. I'm looking forward to up north. I believe it's in 25 days or so.. probably 24 now! CHYEAH! Here's a few new pics though.. love you guys!

^ Me at the cabin... hahaha

^ Twin and her Range Roverrrr!

Basically, my summer already sucks. It's already full of drama. Kayla (Nate's ex) is creating drama which is a bunch of bullshit and Brian and I BARELY talk anymore and if we do, I have to text him.. he won't bothering texting me. That's pretty sweet though... gotta freaken LOVE how guys act. Today sucked so bad. I'm moody and so is Claire which isn't good because we're both bitches when it comes to that. Claire wanted her expensive Lilly sweater back from Farmer so he met us at Dotties.. with STEPH in the car. He refused to get it back. Sam says he's moving out of Brian's apartment and he asked if we hated him. Obviously we do. Brian doesn't even hangout with them anymore so I guess that's one plus, right? It's not like him and I will ever have a thing.

Last night was fine though.. we were supposed to get a tornado but nothing happened. It barely stormed so Claire and I stayed in. It was kinda boring but I was talking to Dylan who I used to like ... we go up north every year together since we were like, babies ... and he was so funny because he was talking shit on his brothers gf who might be coming up this year... so yeah haha good times.

Also, today Claire and I went to Cousins because I was starrrrving and of course Eric, John, and Kyle pull up. Freaken awkward! Nothing was said haha.

Tomorrow I'm supposed to go up north with Claire and her mom for a reunion but we'll see. I wanna go real bad but I also have to go to the bank with my dad, so yeah. Whatevv. Claire is hanging out with Justin right nowww... and I'm at home about to go to the gym so I'm pretty excited that I'm finally HOME for once and not around h-town.